MelodiousFunk

Her opponents:

• Black mayor of a majority-minority lower-income city
• Jewish mayor of a neighboring majority-minority immigrant sanctuary city
• Black/immigrant teacher's union leader
• Jewish legislator running on rightwing talking points
• White lapdog for the mob boss in the southern part of the state who has been deeply embedded in politics for decades

I would have preferred any of the first three listed, but when people call NJ solidly blue, that blue is on a national level, and leans heavily corporatist/"centrist.". "White ex-military mom" is about as centrist as it got here, which unfortunately is what flies on the state level. The dem machine is thoroughly corrupt, and progressives don't get much traction outside of their districts. The solid blue narrative really falls apart once you start getting local. There's a band of blue that roughly follows population density between NY and Philly, with pockets of red where the pockets are deeper. Parts of the NW and SE are basically Alabama.

The current D governor (a milquetoast investment banker) is the first two-term dem since the 70s, and the second term was by a hair (to the current R nominee). He replaced two-term clown turned national clown Chris Christie.

People like to shit on NJ because of Jersey Shore memes and the areas around NYC being mostly concrete, swamp, and/or industrial. Save it. There's plenty of real issues to dunk on. If the shade you're throwing comes from an informed perspective, it's more effective.

On a side note, I was very wrong about my predictions a few weeks ago. I was convinced that either the lapdog or the DINO was going to win... mostly because of campaign advertising. Sherrill completely ignored my area aside from some preliminary feelers early on. But she had the backing of the machine (which I was not aware of), and, well, here we are.

Can't speak for the single, but here's the album:

https://www.discogs.com/release/5137461-Ozzy-Osbourne-Blizzard-Of-Ozz

The only person who really felt my departure was my manager. Nobody else had a fucking clue what I did, aside from call out their bullshit. Most of the crap I worked on either kept working, or there was years of detailed documentation about how much of a dumpster fire it was and how little I was given to fix it. I did become a few people's favorite scapegoat, though. Glad to know they cared.

I read this in Michael McKean's singing voice.

My mom dumped Facebook for being too woke.

I wasn't all that impressed with History of the World Part II. Hoping this fares better.

Maybe it depends on what I want to happen when that load spike comes.

I don't know what they wanted to happen, but at my old place the load spike overloaded the UPS units.

Me: "we really shouldn't be running these at ~~85~~ ~~90~~ 95%."

Brass: "That's not 100. Find room to ingest this company we bought when the CEO made a friend at a circlejerk."

Overnight server update check: blip

UPS: Bypass mode, removed!

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm near neither of those places, but both birds are regulars in my neighborhood. It's kinda cool. Sure ~~bears~~ beats boring old robins and sparrows.

CORDER

I can't even.

I utterly fail at containing and articulating most of these flashes. It's like the data (signal and noise alike) is an incessant thought stream, and the insight is a flash flood. In that instant it makes sense, but turning it into spoken word before getting washed away is a creaky elderly bucket brigade that can never keep up. The buckets leak and end up in the wrong order. I always found it more helpful to go with the flow and see where it takes me, but that doesn't often align with the demands of real life. Teachers want essays (sometimes by the end of the period). Parents want grades. Bosses want results. All demand obedience.

I've got more than a drop of the 'tism, combined with the intermittently squirting faucet of severe anxiety and dank sludge of executive dysfunction going back to childhood. And in hindsight it feels like the gifted label I earned before things got truly awful was just a dunk tank where teachers and parents got to take free shots because they couldn't see unreliable bucket brigade or smell the sludge. "Not working up to his potential." "Lazy." The standard 80's fare for bright AuDHD kids that weren't disruptive (or had stimming etc. behaviors shamed out of them.)

I managed to doggy-paddle my way upstream - undiagnosed, unmedicated, exhausted. To outsiders, it's like I wasn't even moving. Just splashing around. The constant negative reinforcement begat dreary, drizzly depression. Soggy muck everywhere. At first there were breaks of daylight, but those became less and less frequent in favor of more damp, more gray.

And then I got my head held under by the real world. Every breath I was able to snatch came with conditions - just go back to the retail job for a bit after getting laid off, just get through Christmas, just get a real job, just get a promotion, just get a better job, just get a raise, just get a house and finally stop sharing thin walls, fighting the overwhelm and the sludge through all of it and losing more and more of myself. Each snatched breath carried the empty hope that the next breath would be the one to let me keep my head above water. It never happened. I just kept getting dashed against the rocks, the incessant thought streams and occasional flash flood of insight meaning nothing against the might of the sea.

Yet still I adapted. I discovered the sensory deprivation tank of dissociation. The hyperfocues and special interests that once provided warmth and light in calmer tides were now but a featureless bog. No longer drowning, but every movement risked losing something else. A shoe, keys, a prized memory - the bog would take it all. The incessant stream became more of a trickle, much of it passive. But it didn't stop, even if I did. And in the still bog below me I could see reflections of the current trickle. And just to the right, reflections of past streams. Each mirror-like pool showed the reflection of a different stream. Past failures. Regrets for things not done. Injustices unpunished. Mistakes I could never undo. I got lost in some of them. Relived pain. Fantasized about taking different branches in the stream. Had impeccably articulate arguments with antagonists that in real life would have left me floundering for words. And the more I tried interacting with the reflections, the more I realized the ponds weren't quite motionless. There were tiny ripples. And those ripples influenced the reeds, which influenced other pools. In places, the cumulative ripples produced an interference pattern. In this joyless bog where I hid from the world, from myself, unmoving lest the sense of false safety be betrayed, I was seeing tiny crests and troughs modifying countless others in myriad Fourier dances and creating a new stream. No, not new. Just previously undiscovered. One that was there all along, exerting unseen influence. It made me question, well, everything. Myself. My upbringing. My place in the world. The world itself. My beliefs. There was no flash flood of insight. Just a steady drip of reevaluation.

And then it started to rain. At first it was the familiar dreary rain. Then it was the spray from a geothermal geyser that was way too close for comfort. Hot, abrasive. Anger. I couldn't stop the geyser. Couldn't fight it. I could walk away, but I quickly found many more geysers.

Through all of this, the sludge and unreliably squirting faucet kept picking away pieces of me. Until one day a literal tempest hit and laid me bare. It was all I could do to tread water. I managed to find a life preserver, but it's slowly deflating as the riot police hook up the firehose with detached indifference.

I'd apologize for the extended metaphors, but once I got my feet wet I couldn't help but dive in.

Oh let me flow into the ocean
Yeah let me get back to the sea
Let me be stormy and let me calm
Let the tide in, and set me free

• Pete Townshend