Autism

I've been questioning ADHD yet no one wants to diagnose it despite both my parents suspecting it because "I'm fine" and/or "probably just autistic". So, I highly struggle with remembering things. Kids have suspected short-term memory loss/short-term forgetfulness since I was about in fifth grade. I get distracted really easily with my work, and when I talk, it's just a stream of consciousness basically. I've always worked alone even when friends wanted to because when I do, I get really distracted with what they're saying and can't focus on my work.

I also tend to have work and writing all over the place rather than just writing it in one column or going in like a serial order.

When I drink coffee, which I heard happens with ADHDers, I can still sleep normally pretty much and get really sleepy, yet there are other times where I have tons of energy.

I also have something which can probably be explained by both, not only ideas bouncing around a mile a minute and very randomly/rapidly, but also my rejection sensitivity. I also had severe anger issues/meltdowns when I was younger and would throw chairs, struggle to empathize, and be extremely emotional, throwing myself onto the floor.

I am highly creative and will make up characters that seem real and make up parts of my life that seem real and I can't stop. Like if someone was bullying me, I used to turn it into a creative exercise and would think to myself of telling others that they did much worse and were "evil" because that was my reality and my story that seemed real. I get highly attached to my big imagination.

The main thing though is struggling to retain stuff, getting bored easily with my work in class and not paying attention, and also forgetting constantly why I walked into a room or what I was going to say.

Does this sound like your typical autism experience or does this sound like potential AuDHD? I will check in with a psychiatrist, so I'm not diagnosing or anything.