GardenVarietyAnxiety

Basically, it's a calculator that can take letters, numbers, words, sentences, and so on as input.

And produce a mathematically "correct" sounding output, defined by language patterns in the training data.

This core concept is in most if not all "AI" models, not just LLMs, I think.

(I'm currently using Firefox 124.01 on Ubuntu 22.04.03 LTS) (My formatting is also givinge problems... I want to eat my own eyeballs out right now...)

I'm very new to Linux, and trying to get PHP installed, but it won't render anything...

Following this guide (https://ubuntu.com/server/docs/programming-php), I started with:

sudo apt update
sudo apt install apache2

Test Page Success!

So I continue with:

sudo apt install php libapache2-mod-php
sudo apt install php-mysql
sudo apt install php-cgi

Then:

sudo systemctl restart apache2.service

I write the following in /var/www/html/index.php:

<?php

phpinfo();

Test Text1

?>

Test Text2

I see "Test Text2" and nothing else. I see my PHP tags and their contents upon source inspection.

Then I perform the following:

apt list --installed | grep php
sudo apt purge php
apt list --installed | grep php (0 Results)

And try again:

sudo apt install php libapache2-mod-php
sudo apt install php-mysql
sudo apt install php-cgi

sudo systemctl restart apache2.service

No luck... Any ideas what's going on?

A little additional info:

~$ which php
/usr/bin/php

~$ php -v
PHP 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 (cli) (built: Aug 18 2023 11:41:11) (NTS)
Copyright (c) The PHP Group
Zend Engine v4.1.2, Copyright (c) Zend Technologies
    with Zend OPcache v8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14, Copyright (c), by Zend Technologies

~$ apt list --installed | grep php

WARNING: apt does not have a stable CLI interface. Use with caution in scripts.

libapache2-mod-php8.1/jammy-updates,jammy-security,now 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 amd64 [installed,automatic]
libapache2-mod-php/jammy,jammy,now 2:8.1+92ubuntu1 all [installed]
php-common/jammy,jammy,now 2:92ubuntu1 all [installed,automatic]
php-mysql/jammy,jammy,now 2:8.1+92ubuntu1 all [installed]
php8.1-cli/jammy-updates,jammy-security,now 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 amd64 [installed,automatic]
php8.1-common/jammy-updates,jammy-security,now 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 amd64 [installed,automatic]
php8.1-mysql/jammy-updates,jammy-security,now 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 amd64 [installed,automatic]
php8.1-opcache/jammy-updates,jammy-security,now 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 amd64 [installed,automatic]
php8.1-readline/jammy-updates,jammy-security,now 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 amd64 [installed,automatic]
php8.1/jammy-updates,jammy-updates,jammy-security,jammy-security,now 8.1.2-1ubuntu2.14 all [installed,automatic]
php/jammy,jammy,now 2:8.1+92ubuntu1 all [installed]

/etc/apache2/mods-enabled$ ls
access_compat.load  authz_core.load  deflate.load  mime.load         php8.1.load      status.load
alias.conf          authz_host.load  dir.conf      mpm_prefork.conf  reqtimeout.conf
alias.load          authz_user.load  dir.load      mpm_prefork.load  reqtimeout.load
auth_basic.load     autoindex.conf   env.load      negotiation.conf  setenvif.conf
authn_core.load     autoindex.load   filter.load   negotiation.load  setenvif.load
authn_file.load     deflate.conf     mime.conf     php8.1.conf       status.conf

I'm feeling a lot of feelings and need to vent, so my apologies if this ends up being a little scatterbrained.

I'm a security guard in a purple city/red state, and I'm working an event tonight at a church. 3 hours into my shift, I've accepted that I'll have to go to the bathroom at some point.

I'm tall (over 6ft/180cm), over weight, bad hairline, and the only obviously feminine shape I have is boobs (which are squished into a sports bra and not very visible).

Package all this in a polo shirt and black cargo pants... I've gotten "maam'd" -twice- in the 1.5 years I've been working this job.

So, after 3 hours of deliberating, I decided to trade some of my dignity for safety and just use the mens room. I'd already been misgendered, so I felt it was the best option...

I go into the mens room, take care of business (in a stall), and as I'm washing my hands, this guy comes in, sees me and says "am I in the wrong place??" as he walks back out to check the sign on the door. I told him no, I don't think so and just got the fuck out as fast as possible.

There was no confrontation and I didn't feel unsafe, though now I'm worried about a complaint (which I was also trying to avoid), and now I'm too nervous to use either one next time I have to pee... I can't win. And I feel like my spent dignity got me nothing but frustration and a possible complaint.

I won't lie, there was some validation in the whole thing, but it was tainted by the frustration of feeling like there's no place in the world for me and the desire to just hide myself away from it all...

I may have gone too far...