please share, ty!
Shanoa
joined 6 months ago
I'm glad to hear you got that planned out already. I wasn't really prepared and my endo started me super low for so long, so I only just got put on something I could handle with 4mg E pills last month. ๐
I absolutely love this simulator for estrogen intakes on transfemscience.org
Oh damn the tools there are really useful, thanks for the link!
I get a mix of intense gender envy, but also a ton of vicarious euphoria just enjoying how much happier people look/are in their timelines/stories. I can definitely relate though, and I'll go into a bit of my situation to better explain how I observe it.
In my case I've been aware that I'm a girl for over like 16 years now, and I only mustered enough courage to go on hrt 4 years ago. In all that time I've been constantly thinking about transitioning, but I've still hardly been able to acquire any clothes or make enough gender affirming changes, so timelines for me often feel like a painful reminder that I'm unable to make the changes I want as fast as I'd like.
I mostly manage by appreciating all the small bits of progression I do get and knowing that I'm only going to look better from here in the future. And even with how much they sometimes hurt to see, hearing about other people's success helps fill in some of the happiness I'm missing from my own transition, so I'm fortunate to get far more of a positive reaction from them.
It's all so slow and rough (I'm still annoyed that my endo waitlist took over a year, so good call on starting DIY), but as someone also struggling to make progression I wish you the best of luck. ๐๐ปโค๏ธ
About 13 years ago when I was 13 (6 years before my egg was forcibly destroyed), I made a Mii after a Castlevania character on my 3DS and a bit later at that time I was grinding Smash Bros 3DS a ton online.
Iirc, for some reason your username online shows as whatever your Mii's name is, and being known as Shanoa just felt so right to me. So after a lot of hesitation, I decided to name my online handles that and even entered my first in-person Smash tournaments that year under the same name. ๐ I have been competing in platform fighters ever since.
Being known by most of my friends as Shanoa made it really stick with me like it was my real name and whenever I thought about living as a girl, that was the name I always wanted to go by. So after I learned I was trans, I ended up going through with it.
I'm still very early in my social transition, but it's pretty cool to think despite that most people I know irl have been calling me exclusively by my real name for the majority of my life now lol