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But as always I remain ambivalent lol

I got the test results back and everything looks good except for some strabismus which I've known about since I was a kid, it's not really news to me lol, and the slightly lower reflex response from my right side which they found during the test.

But this means it shouldn't be menieres because it doesn't present like that.

So on the one hand it's good, on the other man i don't know. Each time we thought it was something it turns out it was nothing. Just a complete phantom illness.

The weird thing is I know two people that have the same symptoms I do, also without any causes. They're much older but still, it's weird right? A syndrome of just always feeling nauseous and on the verge of vomiting and they don't find anything that causes it.

I think it's worth continuing the medical tests. But also I'm not expecting them to find anything anymore. Everything is gonna turn up fine which is great, but not really helpful either. I'm also lucky that currently I am doing much better. No idea how long it'll last but I can leave the house now and go to my appointments as long as I take it easy and slow. I probably couldn't be out for more than a few hours though.

I think my two options are accepting this is either caused by stress, or by covid somehow. These are my best answers. Just chalk it up to a best guess.

I'm only worried about two things, that I don't know what this means going forward, and that I don't know if doctors are going to stop believing me eventually if they can't turn up anything. Like what do you do with your life