Fuck that, I will mess with shit.

"I want all humans to be able to change sex, race or species at will."

"Give every human being the ability to experience what someone else has experienced by pressing a small button on the top of our heads."

"Make volcanoes erupt food. Just endless, nutritious food for everyone."

"Babies are hatched from eggs. I dunno man, seems like it would be silly."

"No more mosquitoes. Replace them with tiny little airplanes that sometimes circle around you and you have to swat them down like king kong."

I suppose you could wish for all genies to be instantly annihilated. Maybe toss the GOP in there for good measure.

You know, I often find myself coming at from the other direction. Trying not to take life too seriously, because after all in the end, nothing really matters. It matter now, of course. You and I sharing a conversation, matters. Well, as much as a conversion on a social media platform can without one or both of us showing our arseholes. But in the end, the very end, when theres no one left for us to have influenced. We... do that blade runner thing in the rain.

When I was a boy I used to stay at my grandmothers a lot. And it was there that I had my first taste of existential dread. She had this painting of a ship, an old schooner or something(I dont actually know the names of types of ships, so we'll just go with that). It was this ship and it was in the middle of the ocean at night and riding the waves of a storm. And for whatever reason I saw, not only myself in this image, but also the world as a whole. I couldnt really understand what my brain was telling me, but it freaked me out. Seeing this ship in this framed moment of being alone in an endless nothing, and battered by elements with no hope or land in sight. And if the ship sank, no one would ever know it was ever there. It would be lost to time. Our world is that ship. Its alone in the dark, and surrounded on all sides by terrors both known and unknown. And at any moment, it could be dragged down to the depths and never seen again and all that we ever were or ever could be would be lost.

When got a bit older, and I found myself plagued by thoughts of embarrassment, as teenagers at want to do, I would remember that ship. And whatever it was that I wanted to do, I would do because as much as being in the storm terrified me, not steering into it and fighting for every moment would terrify me more. One day I will be at the bottom of that abyss, but right before that, Ill be on a bed. Ill be surrounded by family or I wont, and it will just be a loan nurse whose is tired of constantly fixing my pillows and hearing stories of when I was young, and you didnt need sun block factor 5000. And it will be that quiet moment that regret will get deafeningly loud. And while regret is just unavoidable, the absolute last thing I want to hear myself say is "I wish I had said something.". Ill have a million "I wish I hadnt done that.", and they will all be valid. But at least Ill know that it was the wrong thing, instead of always wondering what could have been. I think that if I took life more seriously, I might not have done anywhere near the amount of things that I did. And while they werent all winners, they were all brilliant moments of life. And as cringe as it can some times be to look back, it was always fun. Although, I probably could have done without seeing a middle aged man jumping out of a wardrobe in crotchless batman outfit... Id say never go home with strange older women in Brighton, but that would really undercut everything else I just said lol.

Life really is terrifying. Which is why you really just have to shit yourself and jump in to get most out of it.

Not sure about the "restart" bit.

Typically something a consciousness would say.