I hope you're doing okay
Kolibri
joined 1 year ago
Lately it been warm enough to go outside at night, which is nice since I like to star gaze. So it's nice to start to be able to do that again without getting cold.
But it makes me miss my dog more, cw: grief
Since I would bring my dog outside with me, and this summer just going to be different without him. I can't help but think how easy it was to lose track of him since he was a walking void, if it wasn't for his white star on his chest, you wouldn't notice him in the dark.
and then this grief is making me think of my mom to, doesn't help it's mother day as well. I guess right now it just one of those moments where all that stuff just comes back.
It also just makes me wonder what am I even doing anymore. Why am I here?
spoiler mental health stuff cw: depression, suicide and why can't things just finally end. It would be nice for things to just end, but they won't. I don't really want to be here. I'm really tired. I really would like to think there just some sort of reason why I just have to keep being here, even if I don't really want to be at times. Yet if there was, things just feel unbearable, especially with lately just feeling like no one really cares about me besides my dad or my grandma.
just I dunno, I just hope something changes. well that not true, lots of things have changed, and things are always changing, albeit slowly. so maybe this won't be forever or I hope so. :::
It's really adorable watching a bird hop up branches of a tree.
Yet Sanders still refuses to admit this is a genocide, while also condemning the axis of resistance and still supporting zionists.
that doesn't really feel appropriate, since 8 people are dead along with 35 injured in the current death toll
yes, 72trillion made a list https://hexbear.net/post/1968187?scrollToComments=false
https://bulletins.hexbear.net/posts/readinglist/
World war 1 and 2 books from 72trillion list
World War 1
While it’s difficult to separate the history of the state and the history of the war during total wars, the more strictly military books will be placed here regardless of the state, while books more on the domestic and economic conditions during the wars will be in their respective national sections. Same goes for the World War 2 section. I might change my mind on how to categorize these books as more literature comes in.
Dreadnought: Britain, Germany, and the Coming of the Great War by Robert K. Massie (1991). This guy might be a lib, but he talks a lot about the naval history of WW1, which is a significant niche.
Castles of Steel: Britain, Germany, and the Winning of the Great War at Sea by Robert K. Massie (2003). See above.
The Great Class War 1914-1918 by Jacques R. Pauwels (2014).
Lawrence of Arabia’s War: The Arabs, the British and the Remaking of the Middle East in WWI by Neil Faulkner (2016).
World War 2
These books focus on general history:
The Second World War: A Marxist History by Chris Bambery (2014).
These books focus on the Eastern Front:
The American West and the Nazi East: A Comparative and Interpretive Perspective by Carroll Kakel (2011).
The Holocaust as Colonial Genocide: Hitler’s ‘Indian Wars’ in the ‘Wild East’ by Carroll Kakel (2013).
The Italian War on the Eastern Front, 1941–1943: Operations, Myths and Memories by Matteo Scianna (2019).
David Glantz wrote all about the Eastern Front:
Operation Barbarossa: Hitler’s Invasion of Russia 1941
Barbarossa Derailed: The Battle for Smolensk 10 July-10 September 1941
To the Gates of Stalingrad: Soviet-German Combat Operations, April-August 1942
Armageddon in Stalingrad: September - November 1942
Endgame at Stalingrad: Book One: November 1942
Endgame at Stalingrad: Book Two: December 1942–-February 1943
After Stalingrad: The Red Army’s Winter Offensive, 1942-1943
The Battle for Kursk, 1943: The Soviet General Staff Study
When Titans Clashed: How the Red Army Stopped Hitler
please come back Fidel
family stuff,addiction
it's good you're getting rest and drinking water despite the relapse. perhaps just resting a bit and taking care of yourself will help? I hope you keep hanging in there, and hopefully things start to change for the better for you.