LeylaLove

Housemates got me sick and I'm feeling like absolute death today. Praying it's not covid

In positive interactions, I was struggling carrying my groceries to the public transit stop yesterday, dropping shit all over the place, and a couple of nice bystanders helped me carry them the rest of the way to the stop, so that made me a little more positive towards people.

My public transit driver today is also very nice, so that's really cool :)

This was easily the worst part of being in rehab. Everybody had horrible fucking taste in music. I got exposed to so many pop artists I had never heard of before, and they all sucked. Especially being in recovery, everybody fucking loved Jelly Roll, I had to listen to so much fucking Jelly Roll

I'm sober nowadays, but psychedelics are the only drugs I can look back fondly on without any reservations. Might do them again some day, just not anytime soon.

Honestly I think it depends on setting and mindset, I can think of a few trips than fundamentally changed who I was as a person, whether that was making me realize that I could be trans, or helping me see how much of a hindrance my own ego was. In the same vain, I can think of many trips where I was easily manipulated by others, or overly sure of my own thought patterns. The difference between these trips was usually the headspace I was taking them in. The life-changing trips, I was tripping just to trip, expecting nothing out of it. The ones that harmed me long term, I was seeking guidance from the drugs when I should have just trusted myself in the first place.

I also wouldn't say ego death would be what you seek for your depression/cynicism, ego death is kinda overrated in psychedelics. Sometimes beautiful, but it's more the sort of thing you work your way up to instead of going for it right from the get go. You can get all the benefits off a trip at lower doses, although I don't really fuck with micro dosing unless you have a specific plan for it.

I hate when these news sites report it as Ecstasy instead of MDMA, because I doubt someone with that much money is taking X pills with God knows what in them when they have access to the real thing. Is funny imagining Musk crushing up some Rick and Morty pressies though

Bump amber whataboutism

Got a steroid shot today for my poison ivy, not as bad as it was before that. My ass hurts where they shot me tho :(

I love my neighborhood cats so much

Where should I start looking for news? I kinda just lurked here for news for a long time, looking to be more proactive now that I'm not addicted to weed and liquor

I'd be into v necks if I had tiddies, maybe after I start hormones again

This is one I've heard varying opinions on. I'd default to her preferred name, but some trans people are fine with being called their dead name in those types of contexts (stories about before their transition) However if you're not close enough to her to be able to ask that question, I'd default to her chosen name