goddamn back to smoking weed in the morning before work again. funny thing is it helps with anxiety in the same amount it increases my baseline. whatever. i used to care about work and have a good ethic and all that in the shittiest jobs for the shittiest people and for lousy wages, and now that i have somewhat stable work for not quite as bad but still could be better pay doing something considerably more chill and maybe less explicitly evil i only complain. grass is always greener, sure, but when work is coercive it can't help stink like a raw deal, even if it's the good shit
goddamn back to smoking weed in the morning before work again. funny thing is it helps with anxiety in the same amount it increases my baseline. whatever. i used to care about work and have a good ethic and all that in the shittiest jobs for the shittiest people and for lousy wages, and now that i have somewhat stable work for not quite as bad but still could be better pay doing something considerably more chill and maybe less explicitly evil i only complain. grass is always greener, sure, but when work is coercive it can't help stink like a raw deal, even if it's the good shit