tamagotchicowboy

Got back into old school Oblivion modding a bit, once I get my bearings and find energy I hope to release a small mod that I'm surprised no one else bothered in that 20yo game. I want to start small with a concept first since that has the highest likelihood of getting done.

I tried a little Erenshor, its basically single player EQ with minecraft graphics, the AI called me out for ninjalooting which was hilarious, just like RL. Its really grindy though and I lack time for that.

I'm a true gaming champion, 2025 has been a rugged year for me, completed 0 games and like 5 books which are some low numbers for me, what plans and hopes survive being deep-fried by work burnout my migraines put an end to.

Read a page or a paragraph and then I try to summarize what I read in my own words or what it reminds me of, ebooks are ez for me to access to I generally just jot something down in notally on my old fire tablet from 2014, but if I were reading on a more modern device or physical book, a computer I'd use Obsidian or something for notes and the ability to link concepts.

More you read older books easier it gets, I've had this problem with some translations of books too, but once I adjust I'll be ok I figure.

Barely started Losurdo's Class war the other day, do you happen to know when/where he takes down Nietzchean will to power in particular? I've read western leftists far back as 100yrs ago abandon all of Nietzsche but they won't abandon that concept proposed by him and try their best to spin it as useful to the movement.

Not quite considering conditions, even someone that's unemployed, homeless, in the most precarious of jobs etc wouldn't be able to escape some of the labor aristocracy bourgeoisification of the proles and lumpenprole logic in the core.

Biggest issue I think is not only failure to relate to the prole at large but fail to capture their imagination and inspire/create hope in something beyond fascism and the abuses of brutal capitalism that doesn't wait until the afterlife. There is no movement that reaches out to them, or frankly anyone atm in the imperial core that provides this; at best its a sort of education by outrage and shock, which don't get me wrong is useful and required, but there needs to be this other optimistic area as well. A full pessimism run mopes too hard to move a mountain, though inspiration and hope maybe can.

My experience in the west is movements are focused on endless purity tests only accessible by the petite bourgeoisie if not outright bourgeoisie, not just in entry education level to join, dues and such, you have to earn a way afterall, but in structure and time. Content almost feels somewhere between old school churchy in Latin and college lecture if you're not super familiar with theory. On the other hand education by meme has its dangers as well, but I'm sure there's a balance. Then you're fucking fried if you're doing prole tier work, its hard to attend a meeting considering 12hr night shifts no holidays and such.

Then let's assume you live among the prole, join the most precarious of work as one of the lil boojies, everyone is going to lose massive respect because you took a paycut, you purposely lost money, even your fellow max exploited workers will not totally be with you. Anyway, I think this part will naturally happen and adjust as conditions worsen in the core.