Im a (Canadian) indigenous, disabled, neurodivergent woman and I have an online friend group but they are white Americans, we get along most of the time except when something political comes up they usually stiffle me by declaring that they avoid politics but when topics come up in conversation they will say things like "women need to bring the birth rate back up abortion should be banned." or "black people complain too much." or "Christianity is the only way a person can be moral." etc. They don't believe they have privilege as cis-het white people, and whenever I try to educated them as delicately as I can they either yell over me or they leave the voice chat and complain about me to others. I am kind of a pariah as one of two poc in the group but the other poc is the "Well behaved Native." and I'm the "Problem Native".
Yesterday we were voice chatting and the topic came up once again they proudly declared they avoid politics because it's "too depressing" I said very plainly and politely that disengagement is exactly what fascism wants, to overwhelm everyone into disengaging and turning a blind eye to the atrocities and I agreed with them that protests aren't for everyone and social media engagement isn't necessary but I said the very bare minimum is voting when there is a vote and signing petitions when there are any can make a difference if more people did it... and they got very very upset they left the chat and I will have to hear about it today from the leader of the group who loves to tell me off whenever he gets a chance.
it's not just them though, it's everyone I've ever known they all either judge me harshly for being political or they jump down my throat because a poc is trying to educate them on why bigotry is bad. Even other indigenous people judge me for being political, my Native family members say that speaking out against injustice is to be as evil as the one committing the injustice so they have ostracized me, and the other half of my family have never wanted anything to do with my existence because I'm an "unbaptized heathen savage." (and that's the least disturbing thing my white relatives have said about me). I don't have parents or siblings...
In this age of identity politics and avoidance I'm almost convinced that I'm an alien its gotten to the point where I'm starting to become increasingly anti-social and my agoraphobia has gotten so much worse. I'm exhausted and sick of being constantly told that I'm a bad person because I think fascism is bad or that I'm disrupting the peace whenever someone says something ignorant/bigoted I'm supposed to "keep quiet or face the consequences." which is usually humiliation, insults, ridicule, and ostracization.
TLDR; I'm lonely but I can't seem to fit in anywhere because of how different I am so where can I find like minded people who aren't toxic, bigoted or aggressively apolitical?
