Adderall. I was on Clonidine for the last week, which is a non-stimulant, but other than having the lovely side effect of lowering my blood pressure, it didn't do anything to alleviate my symptoms.

When I was a kid I was on Dexedrine and it really did help me focus more in school. My parents took me off of it when my grades and behavior in class improved and by that point I think I had matured enough to be able to keep a lid on the worst aspects of it on my own - there was a lot of social pressure to "be normal" and I think that contributed a lot to me masking up and pretending I was just like everybody else, but the symptoms of ADHD I had continually experienced all throughout life like being extremely messy and disorganized, having a generally poor memory, and being extremely fidgety and unable to sit still until my late adolescence were chalked up to just personality flaws, things that I could improve on my own if I just worked at them a bit more. To an extent, I could, but it took constant vigilance to maintain it.

Still waiting for the pharmacy to fill my prescription. Apparently they need several layers of pre-approval and authorization in order to actually hand over the Adderall. Not surprising, but still a little frustrating that the months-long journey to get to this point where I might finally start to get my shit together is being delayed by bureaucratic red tape again.