Not going to offer many details on the where or how, as I don't intend to dox myself, but suffice it to say that I will continue touching butts for an extended period. I don't like feeling aroused by the act. These people placed trust in me. Trust that I mean them no harm and that I am safe to be around. I can certainly be both while aroused, but I'd rather not have to deal with this.

I'd prefer not to dissociate through work, but I can't find another way to contextualize my experiences in a way that doesn't leave me frustrated until I get home.

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Nudist here.

But wasn't raised nudist. Became one as an adult. I have zero qualms getting naked in front of people (even large groups), whether I know them or not. But it was interesting going from someone anxious about nudity because I was raised in a society that's really weird about it to being totally comfortable with it.

There's definitely a sexual aspect to it, but over time that kind of diminishes. I"m assuming if I was raised nudist that sexual aspect would probably never have been there at all because there wouldn't be an exhibitionist angle to it. It's only sexual to me now when normal flirting/advances take place like they would in a regular, non-nude scenario. Hell, it's become regular enough to me that I honestly forget I'm even naked half the time.

It's one of those curtain getting pulled back things. It's really strange to me now how seriously this society treats nudity. It feels weird, and silly, when I have to wear swimwear now. Like, why am I doing this? It's stupid. Putting clothes on to get them wet? Getting out and sitting around with wet clothes on? Whose idea was this?

I can definitely see how some of the people you've interacted with can be comfortable being naked with you there. All my friends have seen me naked and I'll walk around my own house naked in front of them sometimes. NBD.

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