Luigi and ICE taught me two very important things. One, a single man CAN make a difference for good. Whether or not it was seen, it was felt. They shivered. And two. When you have masked men killing people in your own country, no one actually wants to kill someone and face the punishment of doing so. The fact that no ICE agent was killed following Alex Pretti's murder astounded me. It taught me something - this doesn't apply to all of them and it is conspiratorial - but a lot of the death in the political avenues are not done by 'normal' people. That there is a high likely-hood of something else going on behind the scenes. (It sounds obvious reading it but you're made to feel like you're doing something wrong by even considering the possibility of it.)

What I mean is - After Pretti, I thought the country would move in solidarity together. And while parts of it did and had the biggest cause and effect at the time. It didn't spark more than that, it wounded me to be honest.

A person, an ICU nurse shot dead with a mag-dump by multiple men masked in broad daylight given the authority to do so by their own government. It fucking shocked me to my core... I expected retaliation and yet, there was none. What it meant to me was people are not interested in a revolution until it is directly brought to their doorstep. We are interested in total self preservation.

Not only did an ICU nurse helping a woman I might add, was shot dead in the street, his killers were protected and hidden away. A go-fund-me surpassed 1.7 million dollars for the murder of an innocent man... it taught me something valuable. Human beings are a failed species or minimum extremely flawed and adaptive to many types of pain.

How can someone witness that and pay them for the murder and execution of their fellow man so callously, and you can say it wasn't the many but the few that did that. Yet violence never befallen any ICE agent therein after.

It doesn't make sense to me. Yet, at the same time I understood it. I also don't want to risk life and limb for an ideal especially when you already believe the ideal is dead... I don't even why I'm typing anymore. Searching for a solution to a problem long overdue. If anyone has the answers please let me know. I wish I did. I think the best I can do now is actually protest and put these words on more than a forum but out there for like-minded people and stand united. But that feels so idealistic it makes me sickly sweet. But it's better than the alternative.

I can't figure out formatting on here so this doesn't turn into a blob of words.