DeclineIntoCensorship

I am doing much better now, between learning new limits and some other things that are unwise to write down. My sympathies to you friend, even when opiates are needing to be discontinued — i.e. someone is actively being harmed by addiction — the correct response is /always/ a controlled taper.

Re suicide machine. I built a device what for apply to self to extinguish self quickly, reliably (assuming no emergency medical intervention within about 10 minutes), and with minimal discomfort. I didn't want to die, but knowing I could always take that option quickly made it possible to take it minute by minute and not kill myself out of fear that it would later be unbearable.

I don't really want to describe the device as there are ethical and (regrettably) legal reasons why being frank about suicide is something to handle carefully.