I spent years on reddit enjoying trans memes and laughing wryly at how weird it was that I checked so many transfem stereotype boxes despite not being trans. Silly shit like New Vegas & 4X games, music&etc. But I never had any obvious "wrong body" experiences as a kid, life sorta went to shit in a variety of ways for me right around puberty but I just assumed that was how growing up felt, so the possibility that I might actually be anything other than a boy never occured to me. ADHD/autism so I always took shit literally and at face value, everyone said I'm a boy so I must just be some sort of weird boy with problems. Decades of psychedelics and having friends and acquaintances who transitioned, no lightbulb moment. It didn't even begin to click til I read the gender dysphoria bible, specifically the section about biochemical dysphoria. It accurately described my experiences and gave me a reason to suspect that I might not have to spend the rest of my life that way. I started HRT less than a month later, felt better than I had in my entire adult life almost immediately and haven't looked back.