I wouldn't have done stupid counterproductive shit that just made things worse without any benefit.

I think the "follower shit" comment betrays your bitterness at not actually having any followers. You're never going to get your revolution if 99.999% of the population is too "spineless" to caucus with. If you can't find common ground with other leftists who are already sold on communism because they disagree with your strategy, how in the absolute fuck are you expecting to persuade the liberal working class?