They are currently questioning their gender identity and prefer neutral pronouns for now or perhaps indefinitely. When refering to them I'm speaking about one individual only although I can understand the confusion.

I do agree with you, I think that I have become some sort of emotional caretaker for them. They unload their burdens and worries on me and because I'm a fool, I always cared for them despite the weird grey area nonesense as if I was their actual partner. I'm not sure how deep the connection with the other woman goes but it's clear that their affections are not exclusive to me which is a painful realization. They have only refered to the woman as a friend but they seemed awfully friendly in that picture. What's worse is that what right do I even have to complain given the fact that we have broke up and we have split apart in theory. I can't exactly say "Hey don't do that!" Or demand explaination because I am owed none. Despite that I don't think they are a villain or an intentionally cruel person. Just a confused person who doesn't know what they want and ends up hurting the people they claim to care the most about.

I think there is definitely some kind of soap opera in my mind though. Everytime they would do something for me I would think that it meant something special. That I was special to them. I can't really blame myself too much though because they very much encouraged that idea. It is an exhausting situation. I begin to question if perhaps the photo is some grave misunderstanding or that it doesn't mean what I think it means. Anything to keep myself in the soap opera. At the end of the day I came to the conclusion that they most likely just accept affection from whoever is nearest and available and I was both of those things even after we broke up.

Ah I have seen the film and really enjoyed it! I've never read the book before though. I think I'll give it a try too thank you! I'm a bit fan of sc-fi haha.

I'm sorry to hear you are in a similar situation. It is definitely not the most fun experience. I have been newly diagnosed with AuDHD so I can relate to that as well. I think you're right the moments where I am fully distracted and invested in something are the moments I am more at peace. Less time to think about everything. I hope you are managing okay as well. It's hard but we'll get through it and be okay in the end. ❤️

Thank you. Yeah it's been a rough time and I haven't fully processed everything but I'm getting there I suppose. I also enjoy sad electronic music like that. I'm a bit unfamiliar with noise music though, do you have any recommendations? I'm very curious now!

I welcome music too! I do love music. I've given Depeche Mode a try and I really enjoy it so far! My favoruite songs are "Precious", "Wrong" and "A pain that I'm used to" but I'll definitely listen to more. I enjoy the sound and vocals a lot. Thank you for giving me something new to explore, do you have other recommendations? It reminds me of a band I like called Twin Tribes, I have heard of Depeche Mode before but I haven't listened to them very much. I'd recommend Twin tribes them if you like a similar sound!

Thank you I do appreciate it a lot. It's hard right now but perhaps organizing my thoughts with journaling will help me get a handle on things more. I'll definitely get some relaxation in too. I've never tried meditation but I'll give it a go! I've also never seen inside out I think I'll add it to the list of movies I mentioned. Thanks again!