It can be vexing at times to work out how to talk about communism, and socialist state projects, in particular around those with anti-communists views, but sometimes even around sympathizers when you are just trying to dispel propaganda or put it in perspective.
I've noticed you can find yourself in this realm where you're sort of first trying to dispel the "monster under the bed" binary view of what communism is in both theory and practice. And in doing so, it can come out sounding like you are saying communists are not devils, but they are angels. When the point is that they are neither devil nor angel, but are humans who are doing their best to build a more equitable and just world, free of class and caste-based oppression. But if you simply start out by saying this, it can sound like you are admitting to the truth of every absurd narrative against them. This sort of "yes, they are flawed, so that means all the stories about them are true."
But that is not what you want. You want to shake the anti-communist narratives. So you might sort of say, no look, they made incredible strides in quality of life. We can talk about the failures and the excesses and so on later. It can feel like a very awkward way to engage. You know that communism and communists are not perfect, that no one is, that they are not demi-gods but are regular people dealing with difficult material conditions who overcame through organizing. But the good and evil worldview, I think can sort of find this way of describing them to be disappointing or underwhelming, on top of the aforementioned point about some viewing it as an admission of guilt.
I don't have a strong conclusion here, which is why I wrote the title like a question. It may be one of those things where western Christianity rears its head and contributes to difficulties with viewing the struggle as something more nuanced than good vs. evil, or David vs. Goliath. But whatever the cause of it is and the means of getting past it, it seems critical to get there. Even just for the nuance of an anti-imperialist stance combined with communism, it is fundamental to notions of "critical support" to recognize the gray; staying stuck on good vs. evil but sympathizing with communism seems like a fast track to becoming an ultra, for example.
I mean yeah. It's a good bubble to be in, if one is going to have to be in a bubble, but there is a lot of reactionary bullshit out there...
It's weird to be aware and to be trying to do something about it, and also live within that stuff. Reminds of the following line from when I was trying to read through: https://en.prolewiki.org/wiki/Library:No_Free_Left
(bold emphasis mine)
And I would add, unlike the concept of a cult and other formations that emphasize a sense of superiority as a justification for being outside the norm, communism has no such mental buffer exactly? Instead, there is I think more of a humbling going on and an uncovering of scientific ruggedness in existence that might otherwise be more softened or hidden by fanciful ideologies of elitism and false promises. It is like you are seeing the raw nerve endings of society and watching as a steady diet of fast food is paved over with running a lot (figuratively speaking). But you can't simply pretend you exist outside it and act from a safe vantage point. You're in it even as you try to change it and are awash in its influences on you.
Idk if that makes sense, but I'm trying to get at something that is hard for me to put into words.