marching isn't going to do anything, and neither are protests or peaceful demonstrations. we should be far beyond that as a people. i believe that is our only true way forward. i don't see it happening.
chosensilence
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some of us experience negative events routinely. people call it "bad luck" but that implies some kind of superstition. i don't have bad luck. however, it appears i statistically experience negative outcomes far more frequently than people i personally know. it has to happen to somebody. our outcomes exist on a gradient of two probable states; positive or negative, so when you physically "do something" you become your own tool of measurement by interacting with your surrounding environment. you then "record" the outcome observed in our universe through your action: positive or negative. see? no luck. it's just math and shit.
my point is, i am what i am going to describe as quantum unlucky. i don't understand it and it just is what it is, but i am fucking cursed by this universe to experience the shittiest shit as a dumb American. i am beyond exhausted. i cannot convince myself to stay here any longer. i merely exist because i am too afraid to end it. it isn't necessarily the fascists that would do me in, because i have had a life of misery before i became aware of their existence, but they certainly have made everything more bleak.
i have $0 money saved and struggle to keep money past five days of each paycheck. i am supporting myself and my partner on one income in the non-profit sector (meaning i'm even more underpaid than usual). i can't move at the moment, but even if i could, the job i have right now is ideal and i would prefer to keep it. i have struggled my entire life to find a job i could be stable in, so this is exceptionally rare for me.
i don't want to be here anymore. it's been 35 years of torture and torment and fascists are winning. i'm tired. life isn't precious, there's no meaning, so let me fucking end my own story.
it’s alright, everyone is going to get their wish and there will be one less broken trans person in the world once i work up the courage to end it. shit like this helps. just pushes me closer.
informal contractions are simply informal just because. there’s no real reason to consider them informal or not standard other than arbitrary rules.
“You shouldn’t’ve done that.” “It couldn’t’ve been him!” “I might’ve done that if you asked.”
while you're not wrong i do want to reiterate that mRNA vaccines are likely going to be how we treat and cure cancers so there is precedent at least for this to be massive news. if not this there will likely be a real announcement one day.
oh they hate when you say that there lmao
ah see, thanks. i need to catch up then. i was hoping to be wrong about the direction of their reactions but you are pointing out my worries coming true. "idk i'm seeing some vicious anger that appears to imply their focus on pedophilia overrides their allegiance to Trump," i thought. lol. welp. i guess we'll see but now i'm back to where i was.
check the edit in my comment. i don't know about a documented uprising or anything but people are vocally expressing disapproval and some are rather upset. trump almost got assassinated by a disillusioned conservative. these people are dangerous and unhinged even against themselves.
..no, i said real world examples lol. like a town hall meeting where people loudly booed Trump and it was a meeting specifically for his crowd.
edit: this here - i can't find a good clip that is just the event itself, sorry. searching nowadays is garbage but it is out there. this will give you an idea of what i'm talking about. there are more examples.
i have done all i can to reduce the cost, yes. this is the lowest i can go as i am buying directly from the manufacturer who is already offering a reduced cost.