For me everything after childhood seems to be the best part of life, because after you grow up you finally can make your life the way you want and if you have enough strength you can make it absolutely wonderful.
Childhood can be cool too but only if you happen to be born to a good family.
This! Steam is the only proprietary program I use on my Linux machines that I'm actually happy with and don't want to get rid of
Good linux mobile OSs already exist, but phones' hardware is still proprietary and messed up, so it is very difficult to provide a good hardware support for those mobile OSs
I think those kinds of mental problems are purely psychological. I know why it feels like something physical: it's completely uncontrollable, seemingly irrational, pointless and harmful behaviour, but I believe this just means you're not conscious of what is going on deep in your mind and that all of those behaviours actually stem from your real, perfectly rational needs - those needs are just in conflict with what the conscious part of you wants. People might be depressed because deep inside they're deprived of creative and meaningful relationship with the world or be anxious because they lack the sense of the self and thus feel absorbed by the reality. In both cases, the resultant behaviour becomes obstruent to what the day-to-day part of ourselves needs (to study, to work, to be productive and successful etc.) A panic attack doesn't particularly help at a job interview after all. So we never bother to actually think about those deep struggles and they remain a subconscious, disintegrated part of us, that appears as an external force to what constitutes our conscious self. This is when it is easy to think of your problems as just brain malfunction. But brain malfunction doesn't cause existential struggle. You might loose your sight and hearing, memory and other cognitive abilities but it's always something broader and more primitive than concrete, complex experiences that we call mental problems.
So I believe what would actually help is a deep dive into the realms of your subconsciousness to discover the hidden needs behind your panic attacks and depressive moods. Once you realise them, it will be easier to fill the gaps in your life. Neither meds nor "correct your negative thoughts" kind of therapy can do that. They leave the problem itself untouched.
P.S. I myself used to be very depressed and anxious. Suicidal thoughts and the feeling of the vanity of existence wouldn't let me. Meds didn't really help. Only after I realised my deep conflicts and started to change my whole life, did I get any better. I found what I needed to break through the alienation from life and now, although still struggling at times, I have a very strong sense of purpose in life and I actually feel self-actualised.
Wow, I didn't know a president could mess up his own state so much. Thanks!
That is very interesting, thank you for the detailed response!
they believed that the best security was older systems that had been thoroughly tested for vulnerabilities
Oh no 😅 I am not a cyber security expert but that seems to me like a recipe for a disaster
Speaking of systems, what OS do they use in the military?
Ohh good to know
I think a big issue with this whole drug situation is that people have a very wrong idea about addiction. Addictive things are NOT universally addictive. It is actually you who make things that way to yourself. Not in the sense of conscious action, of course, but rather your inner intuitive way of adapting to the world around you.
If you think of it, drugs are always destructive so why would anyone ever need to destroy themseves? Well, if you dig deeper, you'll discover a big existential conflict in those people that they cope with that way. By disrupting brain function, by suppressing their reasoning, they also suppress their inner conflict - and that's what produces the positive effect. Whereas on their own, drugs are pure poisoning. That is the reason why many people just don't like drugs.
I myself am an example. I got drunk a couple of times and contrary to what others told me about relaxation and feeling happy, i just felt poisoned (same with smoking btw). I wasn't able to properly think and had a sensation of loosing the grip on reality which scared the shit out of me. There was no happiness, it literally felt like partially dying. Later on, my friend told me it was actually that very effect of not being able to think that she liked. It freed her of her everlasting anxiety and was the only thing that let her feel peace for a while. And I heard similar stories from many people.
So if you're addicted to something, try to ask yourself: what do you want to suppress inside of you? And instead of suppressing it, try to resolve the conflict. Find what is missing in your life. It is most certainly something very deep and existential - not just a family and a house. Maybe you lack the feeling of the self and you fear being engulfed by the outer reality, maybe you haven't still mentally separated from your parents (even if you're old) and your whole inner world is mere representation and continuation of theirs. In any case, after you solve that big problem, there will be no more need in self destruction and your addiction will probably just fade away.
Gonna save this A very good visual representation
You should try assembly. Pure goto hell
Considering it was still military, how much different was your experience working as an IT professional from the usual experience of someone working in IT outside of the military? I imagine there still is some tension, maybe occasional harassment? Or is it just like any regular job? Sorry if it is a stupid question, I literally know nothing about the military
The will to understand other people and to grow as a person yourself.