piranhaconda

joined 1 year ago
[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 2 points 8 hours ago* (last edited 8 hours ago)

I was not aware of this... Thanks for the heads up. The only device I have dual booting right now is just my Lenovo Legion Go, handheld gaming. Split windows and Bazzite (fedora based)

Guess it's time to wipe the windows. I haven't even used it that much

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 4 points 12 hours ago

Nice! Congrats my dude. Would've been closer to the same day but someone gave me a bottle of whiskey for Christmas that year and I hadn't told anyone I was trying to quit yet

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 3 points 21 hours ago* (last edited 21 hours ago)

Not sure. I've never really reflected on that idea. It certainly seems to be true for me personally.

My alcoholic years had some pretty ugly parts and could have killed me several times. Severe depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, wrecked my car (thankful it was just me and a steep curb, no one else involved, that could have been so much worse), a hospital trip, walking 2 miles home by myself at 3am almost every weekend while hammered in the middle of a US city known for its crime and lowkey wanting someone to try to mug me, etc. Let alone the physical damage that 50-100+ standard drinks per week at my worst was doing to my body, luckily none of that seems to be permanent, I was scared to get my blood work done for the first year alcohol free, but it came back fine.

I don't like looking back on that period of my life, but I've come to terms with the fact that it happened and I can't change that and mostly been able to forgive myself.

So while it was ugly and could have killed me, shit at parts of it I wanted it to kill me, at the same time... I wouldn't be who I am today without all that (and a lot of therapy and self reflection and journaling and all that fun stuff). I really genuinely like who I am today. I haven't been able to say that for the majority of my life. And I find a lot more appreciation in the little things that I used to be too numb to see. I'm doing things I enjoy solely because I enjoy them, not because my family or parts of society say it's what I'm supposed to be doing.

I don't think I want that statement to be true for humanity as a whole, at least not in the way that I faced my mortality, I hope there are other ways people can get to a point where they feel truly alive. But yea I think it's true for me.

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 4 points 23 hours ago (2 children)

Heck yea! Walking around the block is where I started again a couple years ago. It's definitely worth sticking with it. Life got in the way a few times and I had to be gentle with myself and repeatedly remind myself that progress isn't linear, and that doing something is better than nothing.

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 5 points 1 day ago (4 children)

Thanks :) I don't really talk about my sobriety with a ton of people in person, still some shame associated with who I used to be, appreciate being able to share online.

And yea exercise in various forms is one of my big things now, definitely relatable, I try not to be preachy about it. Lifting, swimming, and rollerblading recently. I need to do more yoga though... I'm in wayyyy better shape than I was two years ago, feeling almost as good as my college athlete days.

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 32 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (4 children)

Some actress with boobs. I know her from White Lotus. No idea on the ending wokeness part because I don't follow the lives of celebrities outside of checking IMDB to see what else they've been in.

Edit: I tried to look into it a bit. Something about the fact that a conventionally attractive young woman with nice breasts is gaining popularity means it's an end to all the body positivity and other wokeness? Idk, I'm not doing more than 5 minutes of looking into it

I also saw that her grandma has seen her nude scenes and said "she has the best tits in Hollywood" and that's just hilarious

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 16 points 1 day ago (9 children)

Sobriety. 2 years 3 months since I've drank.

Still relearning some aspects of being an adult. Figuring out who I am. Picking up old hobbies again and trying new ones. So many things bring me joy nowadays where it used to only be alcohol that triggered the ol happy brain chemicals.

I'm in a much better place than I was a couple years ago when I was abusing alcohol as a coping mechanism.

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 3 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago)

The sand tiger shark also doesn't have a drink... So it also captures how I feel on first dates as a recovering alcoholic

[–] piranhaconda@mander.xyz 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Well you can't just say that and not give me a link, you've piqued my curiosity