For anyone reading, this guy is a great example of why not to serve in a military. In case your normal human aversion to hierarchy and violence isn't enough. The abuse they put you through to shape you into something willing to kill for them (and the killing etc itself of course) has lifelong consequences.

To "redditmodssucks", you find what you look for and there's a lot that makes life worth living. Always for love, never from fear. I hope you find some peace and maybe even a little joy. Hope is real, good luck out there.