i have an honest question and not a snarky one, if you really love communism, why not move to a communist country?

You say this is honest, but this question has never been asked in good faith. Is the only reason you live where you live because the economic system it uses? Do you have no ties to the area besides? No family or history, or national pride? No job or property, or friends, or anything else? Do you speak every language and are accepted by and accepting of every culture, so you can just go anywhere and feel at home?

Anyone who asks this can fuck right off. At minimum, seeing issues and wanting to fix them for other people is enough of a reason to stay and try to change things. If you can't see why people don't want to uproot their lives to go somewhere else, even if that somewhere else existed and was exactly what they wanted, you aren't actually being honest.