Sometimes I feel like this is hell. Not in a "I actually sincerely believe it is" kind of way (I don't even really believe in hell in the religious sense), but more like I'm looking at how bad things are sometimes, how prolonged, and it's hard not to go to a dark place sometimes.

I guess it's one reason I'm inclined toward romanticizing early commune style of society. I know it had hardship, but god damn, at least you had community; like actually existing in the immediate real world community, not online posting or people who are a long drive away. Individualism segments everybody out like they're an island of their own and then says "cope".

I wish I could summon a black void, hold it up to liberals, and be like, "See this? This is what your liberal individualism is. This is the best case scenario of it. Emptiness." Like what is fulfilling about "be yourself" if there's no "us"? This is one of the things reformists either don't understand, or do understand and ignore. Even if you somehow temporarily make "capitalism with better living conditions", you haven't addressed the pain of individualism, which works hand in hand with capitalism. We should be aspiring for people to be able to lead a good life, not a slightly less terrible than before life.