I agree with [Loathsome dongeater] (https://lemmygrad.ml/u/ksynwa) and [amemorablename] (https://lemmygrad.ml/u/amemorablenam).
While destruction for the sake of destruction satisfies visceral instinctive drives, it serves no one, least of all the actor and those on behalf of whom the actor supposes s/he is acting, and often exacerbated the conditions we dream would be ameliorated.
I'm very sorry you are faced with this, and hope you can fare fairly well, in any event, comrade.
Idk I give up on formatting