After more than 2 years of being a supposed communist I've finally started reading theory. Before I only learned from videos/video essays, discussion threads and all your posts and memes but now I've finally started reading the source material. I tried two sperate times last year but I just couldn't focus and my mind would just wander off or I literally couldn't focus (my vision would just get blurry and I had to force my eyes to focus on the text continuously) so I got discouraged and stopped trying. But this time I'm listening to audiobooks and they have really helped me. My reading has improved too and I can even focus better (It's not perfect but I've improved from last time).

Thanks for all the links, resources and guides you've posted on this site, thank you my comrades.