Living just to see if things get worse

Yea this is how I feel talking to my suicidal friend. Like i'm way more lonely, I have no idea what my future career is gonna be, I have over 14.000€ in student loans, i'm constantly broke, yet I persist. And I don't mean to say i'm stronger or my friend is weaker, I just have absolutely no idea why or how I haven't already killed myself

That's the beauty of hope.

Without hope for a better tomorrow we won't have the drive to make it happen.

It gets worse and it gets better. I don't even know how.

Dying in case they don't.