Climate change, fascism, being mislead and lied to by school system that thought I was a lost cause.

I’m not demoralized by the problems the world faces. I’m demoralized by people’s active efforts against solving them, or encouraging making them worse. Racism above economic benefits for all. More expensive gas vehicles over the multitude of transport options that don’t pollute our environment.

In history books, I read stories about how the world had to band together to win WW2; for instance, stories about sharing used nylons to make parachutes, or how the modern post office was reinvented. As horrible as war was, I miss when people would actually try. It disgusts me that a great many people just know that you-know-who lies on the regular and still support him.

I don’t even hate him so strongly. I hate what he showed of our world as a litmus test, and it’s made it hard to trust that world again.

Because the world sucks and there is nothing I can do with it

Because all of these moneymen and salesmen have their collective boots on my throat. I can't just go outside and play anymore what with all of the cameras and evil groups concerned about why I might be outside.

Everything keeps getting further away economically. It’s like those dolly zoom shots in cinema where the camera keeps the subect in the same spot but the background rapidly recedes. I keep trying to move forward, but it feels like we’re not getting anywhere.

Everything is expensive. I'm behind on everything. There's no end in sight.

Gestures around broadly

Because I'm working for the Devil.

Right now? My boyfriend is very clearly emotionally wounded by something he doesnt want to share with me. Feeling helpless makes me unhappy, EZ.

capitalism, mostly.

Almost every issue I have right now goes back to billionaires, fascism, or capitalism. The last two years have been the most difficult of my life so far, and literally existential. I just nearly avoided statelessness and now I can't legally work following a layoff, so I've been living off of savings

Capitalism, religion, and being born the wrong gender.

Because everything is awful.

Progressive health problems are progressing. Slowly losing my life more and more to these awful diseases. Every month another small capability dies, and my life shrinks again.

I try to focus on the short term, living day to day. That isn't so bad, I'm reasonably happy. But sometimes I look up and remember the cliff edge approaching. I think that would disturb anybody.

Capitalism. Definitely capitalism.

cause i wasnt born in the scandinavian region

Currently, mostly AI and also feeling a bit isolated in a somewhat conservative town as someone who is queer

I am, though?

I don't make a large enough salary to save for a home, take vacations, or save enough to not be homeless in retirement. The country I reside in is currently undergoing a fascist takeover and considers its citizens chattel to further enrich the wealthy elites.

Because 46 and lost remote job, and after working a year from home dread having to go into work. Especially with gas what it is and I live in shit hole state with no public transportation. Add to the fact that I must try find work in this economy while dealing with ageism. Just fucking hate this shit.

I'm lonely and hate myself, and I hate myself too much to move towards not being lonely.

Also I'm in the Navy, and I work insane hours.

Billionaires are alive

I don't really have any complaints, I'm just not a very happy person

What would be the point?

If you are happy you are a target, you still haven't lost hope and you still have something that can be taken away.

Why should I be?

Some combination of decades of trauma, a system designed to marginalize and exploit, a lack of community, genetics.

I don't know how to

just found out my boyfriend of nearly 9 years has been emotionally cheating on me for the last 3 months, thanks to a drunken slip-up. what's funny is it would've been fine if it was just sex, but no... boundaries had to be tested.

I miss happiness

I’m mostly happy, but I want to do a thing that’s going to take time and preparation. It’s not going to be fun to do this thing, but I really want to do it.

sigh I just have to be patient and prepare.

Brain chemistry and resistance to medication.

Health.

Also brain.

Also they overlap.

Chronic fatigue and insomnia.