Fuck. Landlords.

So I'm not closeted. But I present butch so most people probably just see androgynous/fruity man. I won't give the exact details for OpSec but last week I basically got outed on a large scale for a community I'm involved in face to face regularly. I had an almost panic attack because of it.

But I eventually realized "hey this was good, it's like pulling a bandaid off all at once".

Except no one seemed to notice, at first I thought people were just being polite and pretending not to have notice. It wasn't subtle it was literally almost "Xia Cobolt is actually a woman, she is trans!". But like no one actually was paying any attention in the slightest and I'm like relieved but also disappointed.

Yesterday and today, there have been ravens near the tree line -- they are so silly, and loud. Just over there "Ah!" "Ah!" so cool. A goth lady came over yesterday, I told her about the ravens and she said "Oh, that's a good sign!"

today stunk... some loud braggart said some stuff and i got in this whole argument

WHERE

THE FUCK

DID ALL OF MY

F U C K I G N

SPOONS GO?????

me with my two friends that i will definitely make within the next two years inshaallah

I sometimes forget that is british tbh, I like to keep forgetting if I could help it to be honest.

Back in high school all the cool gay kids would listen to like lady gaga now they listen to walls of noise broken up with old radio number stations or whatever.

Goodnight my friends

unusually cold week, my beloved. temporarily assuaging my climate change anxieties briefly

Think I'm on a new arc where I'm just not gonna correct my spelling no more, it shows hesitant and weakness to go back and edit things.

I’m coming around on my hair a bit, but I wish I knew how to style it or what products to use to achieve an effect.

Laser on the face really be like "you will shave twice a day and be happy"

finished Andor s2, im sad cuz that was perfect and i can never experience it again for the first time, Kleya is serious goals and the drip is immaculate, fuck

Bi-cycle is slowly turning towards women and I don't like it

I just know if I start saying "what the gender?" instead of "what the fuck" it'll be a week maybe less before I start doing it unironically that's how fast I develop my brainworms

saw a guy i used to watch streaming and i thought he had low viewer count so i checked the history^1^ and now hour and a half later i went down a whole ass- memory lane to the 2010s and all the loser streamers i watched.

~1~ ~nah~ ~he's~ ~solidly~ ~a~ ~10k~ ~andy~

been sitting here struck with the realization that boys are actually really cute and i am significantly less gay than i thought. i'm still bi but like wtf i can't stop thinking about men. i've been stuck on "damn wtf i'm into boys a lot more now" for the past like 4-5 months and still can't get over it