"My hand to God

I didn't mean to

After all

Look what we've been through

Men come in different shades

That's how we're made

The little house on Ellis Drive

Is where I felt most alive

The oak tree covered that old Ford

I miss it Lord,

I miss it Lord

These blood red eyes

Don't see so good

But what's worse is if they could

Would I change my ways?

Wasted times and broken dreams

Violent colors so obscene

It's all I see these days

These days"

Just a deep and profound expression of regret for misconduct towards another, a special person, and the feeling of tremendous loss that comes from the inevitable, irrevocable, change there from.

I know it all too well.

Burn the land and boil the sea, You can't take the sky from me.

From Firefly. Sung by Sonny Rhodes, written by Joss Whedon

You know, suicide isn't painless,
When you leave everyone in pain.
NOFX - Doornails

"To defy the laws of tradition is a crusade only of the brave" Primus

https://youtu.be/AccbAu2KmFg

Strangers passing in the street. By chance, two separate glances meet, and I am you and what I see is me

~ Pink Floyd - Echoes

Now Paul is a real estate novelist,
who never had time for a wife

(...)

Vicarious by TOOL

Eye on the TV, 'cause tragedy thrills me

Whatever flavor it happens to be like

"Killed by the husband"

"Drowned by the ocean"

"Shot by his own son"

"She used a poison in his tea

Then kissed him goodbye"

That's my kind of story

It's no fun 'til someone dies

Cause I need to watch things die

From a distance

Vicariously, I live while the whole world dies

You all need it too, don't lie

Let's put one classic here. One that is sadly more and more relevant these days...

Generals gathered in their masses, just like witches at black masses. Evil minds that plot destruction, sorcerers of death's construction. In the fields the bodies burning, as the war machine keeps turning. Death and hatred to mankind, poisoning their brainwashed minds...Oh lord yeah!

Politicians hide themselves away They only started the war Why should they go out to fight? They leave that role to the poor

Time will tell on their power minds Making war just for fun Treating people just like pawns in chess Wait `till their judgement day comes, yeah!

Now in darkness, world stops turning, as you hear the bodies burning. No more war pigs of the power, hand of god has struck the hour. Day of judgement, god is calling, on their knees the war pigs crawling. Begging mercy for their sins, Satan, laughing, spreads his wings...Oh lord, yeah!

• War Pigs, Black Sabbath

My time is a piece of wax Falling on a termite Who's choking on the splinters

~Beck, "Loser"

Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose.

~Kris Kristofferson, Me and Bobby McGee

The people who love me still ask me, "When are you coming back to town?" I answer, "Quite frankly, when they stop building roads, And all God needs is gravity to hold me down."

~Alison Kraus, "Gravity"

Four hundred years later, I learned about my roots, And how they traded in their white sheets for badges and blue suits

~Onyx, "Getto Mentalitee"

Is your mother worried? Would you like us to assign someone to worry your mother?

~Chaise Longue by Wet Leg

You want me to love you in moderation Do I look moderate to you?

~Florence + The Machine, "Moderation"

And the salt in my wounds Isn't burning anymore than it used to. It's not that I don't feel the pain It's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore.

~Paramore, "Last Hope"

the shit hasn't even begun to hit the fan.

~Incubus, from "Consequence"

I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve. I have a history of losing my shirt.

~"One Week" by the Barenaked Ladies

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

Regina Spektor - On the Radio

"the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had" - Bad Word (Tears for Fears)

"Well, Americans don't care for much of anything
Land and water the least
And animal life is low on the totem pole
With human life not worth more than infected yeast,"

"Americans don't care too much for beauty
They'll shit in a river, dump battery acid in a stream
They'll watch dead rats wash up on the beach Complain if they can't swim" - Last Great American Whale (Lou Reed)

the entire songs is magnificent

In my life I hope I lie And tell everyone you were a good wife And I hope you die I hope we both die

No Children by The Mountain Goats.
The entire song is lyrically amazing. It's about a divorcing couple who were frankly broken to begin with. And while just reading the lyrics make it seem like a big downer of a song, it's in a major key, and there is catharsis to be found in its hatred.

Kill him. Fucking kill him. Kill him already kill him. Kill him already. Kill him already. Kill him. JUST FUCKING KILL HIM. FUCKING KILL HIM.

Shellac - Prayer to god

I sing this almost daily when I read the news.

"We'll buy some drugs and watch a band / then jump in the river holding hands"

Is this how it is?
Is this how it's always been?
To exist in the face of suffering and death
And somehow still keep singing?

Florence + The Machine - Free

Also:

I did my best, tried to impress, my childhood dream made flesh
And my dresses and my flowering sadness, so like a woman to profit from her madness
I was only beautiful under the lights, only powerful there
Burned down at thirty-six
Why did you dig me up for this?

Florence + The Machine - One of the Greats

Dying is easy it's living that scares me to death

Cold - Annie Lennox

I am not usually fond of slow ballads, but Annie Lennox has the depth to pull me in.

Insanity laughs under pressure we're breaking

Queen - Under Pressure

A gift shop at the gun range, a mass shooting at the mall

Bo Burnham - That Funny Feeling

(Honestly every line in that song is golden)

We brag on having bread, but none of us are bakers We all talk having greens, but none of us own acres If none of us own acres, and none of us grow wheat Then who will feed our people when our people need to eat?

Killer Mike ~ Ronald Reagan

There's a tool for everything A sawzall can set you free

There's copper in the hills, you ain't gotta mine it. Just a pickup truck in the dead of night. Birds of a feather, they'll flock and cry but the metal man don't care which way you fly.

-sawzall v surveillance, Nathan evans fox

"And on I read, until the day was gone.

And I sat in regret of all the things I've done.

For all that I've blessed, and all that I've wronged.

In dreams until my death I will wander on."

Audioslave, Like A Stone.

so practically this whole song (sorta half and really half of a half. its complicated) from jethro tull just becomes more and more relevant every year as the dystopia increases:

There's the stillness of death on a deathly unliving sea
And the motor car magical world long since ceased to be
When the Eve-bitten apple returned to destroy the tree

Incestuous ancestry's charabanc ride
Spawning new millions throws the world on its side
Supporting their far-flung illusion, the national curse
And those with no sandwiches please get off the bus

The excrement bubbles
The century's slime decays
And the brainwashing government lackeys
Would have us say
It's under control and we'll soon be on our way
To a grand year for babies and quiz panel games
Of the hot hungry millions you'll be sure to remain

The natural resources are dwindling and no one grows old
And those with no homes to go to, please dig yourself holes

I repeat myself when under stress

I repeat myself when under stress

I repeat myself when under stress

I repeat myself when under stress

-Indiscipline by King Crimson

Also:

The music of rebellion makes you wanna rage

But it's made by millionaires who are nearly twice your age

-The Sound of Muzak by Porcupine Tree

And if you choose not to decide you still have made a choice

~ Rush- Freewill

That line helped kick my ass into gear and actually start living the life I wanted instead of sitting paralyzed by my fears

Love is watching someone die

~ Death Cab for Cutie - What Sarah Said

That song just kinda broke me after watching my mom slowly die of cancer

She could have turned out to be almost anything, with the possible exception of what I wanted her to be. Jackson Browne

The rivers are full of crocodile nasties And he who made kittens put snakes in the grass - Bungle in the Jungle - Jethro Tull

Some rich men came and raped the land. Nobody caught 'em. Put up a bunch of ugly boxes, and, Jesus, people bought 'em - The Last Resort - Eagles

The Goats, I forget which track from the album Tricks of the Shade:

Not forgotten like the Arawaks We mowed down a race so an engine could ride a pair of tracks Who cares about the facts we got food on the table Saying thanks because the giving was the reason for the fable

And from another track, same album:

Columbus destroyed more Indians than Hitler killed Jews But on his birthday you get sales on shoes And this is all old news but I'm afraid you can't find it You snooze you lose so I choose to rewind it Offer gun for gold but behold a real plan Using shady treaties trading trickies for land They should've scalped his ass before he even touched sand

Two songs come to mind for me off the same album (therapy, by radical face):
Dead ends:

There ain't no fixing this, but I like that you tried 
Sometimes the hardest part is being right 
There ain't no helping me, but I like that you lied 
Sometimes it's worth the burn marks to feel the light

There’s two versions of this album, a regular one and an “alternate reality” one with the same lyrics but a bit more uplifting of a take on them. The regular version of this verse is fucking crushing, I love it so much

Hard of hearing:

Another evening spent 
In the corners of my brain 
Where I wander off into the dark 
And I close my eyes and hope 
The wolves won't follow me 
But hope's hard of hearing 
So I'm waiting for the teeth

I had to learn that the helping hand 
Can be the same that holds the knife 
I know I'm not well but I'm alright 
You gotta learn how to take your hits 
When your hands are always tied 
I know I'm not well but I'm alright

This one I think I prefer the alternate reality version, it’s just the perfect melancholy song

Our hopes and expectations:

Black holes and revelations.

• Muse, Starlight

One of my absolute favorite lines in a song that doesn't require the entire song to understand the context and subtext.

On y a mis la tête contre une brique Que même la brique, elle a eu mal

Which can be translated to

We smashed his head against a brick So hard even the brick got hurt

(From Renaud, Deuxième Génération)

"Democracy don't rule the world. You better get that through your head. This world is ruled by violence, but I guess that's better left unsaid". Bob Dylan form his album "Infidels" and the song is called "Sundown on the Union". The song is over 30 years old but Dylan saw it unwinding back then.

Fuck you all, fuck everyone and everything, you don't know me and you wouldn't want to anyway forced into the end, I fucked myself, I fucked myself again again, I am nothing, again, fuck everything

• F.E. - 40 Below Summer

Amiaryllis' Watashi Wa Ame cover

I suffer in this shallow puddle, while others drown among their turbulent seas

and

But, still i wish that i could suffer the pain of everyone so i'd understand

For the Dutch: Bokkers - Jezus Ze lup noe met Jezus en dat vin ik gemeen Want zo’n keerl zo as Jezus, doarvan is er maar één Ze lup noe met Jezus, want zien liefde is groot Moar as ik Jezus ooit teeg'n kom, oe dan hou ik um dood

The song is about a guy who's girlfriend/wife has found Jesus, but the guy seems to think Jesus is just another guy. Translation: She now walks with Jesus, and I think that's mean Because a guy like Jesus, there's only one of him She now walks with Jesus, because his love is great But if I ever come across Jesus, oh then I'l beat him to death

Kismat, Bloodywood

The paths that destiny leads to

There is sunlight in some places and shade in other (Shade in other)

Weight of these responsibilities

Time, a blind blacksmith

Has crafted this shield, has crafted this shield of mine

I must fight this sickness
Find a cure
I must fight this sickness

From The Cure - Pornography

I love how the lyrics are strangely optimistic compared to the rest of the album (in that they recognize that the horrific self-loathing and depressing thoughts presented in the other tracks on the album must come to an end). I also like how they reference the band's name at the perfect moment. Truly some of the best closing lines of all time.

(Don't have to be) a big bucks Hollywood star
(Don't have to drive) a super car to get far
(Don't have to live) a life of power and wealth
(Don't have to be) beautiful, but it helps

I came to the club drunk with a fake ID
Don't you wanna grow up to be just like me?
I've been with ten women who got HIV
Now, don't you wanna grow up to be just like me?
I got genital warts and it burns when I pee
Don't you wanna grow up to be just like me?
I tie a rope around my penis and jump from a tree
You probably wanna grow up to be just like me
Eminem - Role Model