WongKaKui

Usually its like just a few words sprinkled in, or at most like one or two lines...

Literally I feel like they're just trying to say: "Hey this is a foreign language I'm sooo cooool!"

Funny how my brain suddenly fears death, when I've been feeling kinda suicidal... but all the sudden, now my brain has decreed: "wait, fuck, actually death is bad, dont wanna die yet... aaaahhhh"

Can you imagine the horrors of SURVIVING an apocalypse... then you have no internet anymore cuz.. um... you know... everyone is very DEAD.

I have a drug addiction... addicted to DOPAMINE...

My Photosynthesis¹ is turning Internet-Rays into the rare and legendary DOPAMINE

(¹Internet Light-Ray Photosynthesis --> Interaysynthesis?)

Like can you imagine doing things like gasps read books? ...as entertainment in an apocalypse? Books? Stare at dead trees? The fuck?

(Speaking of books... I feel like physical books transmit too much viruses... DRM-Free Ebooks FTW!... I mean woukd you even touch a book smeared with zombie blood/puke? ewww.... sorry my germophobia is kicking in again)

Judge: You have been charged with First Degree Kittenphilia. Several witnesses claim they saw you approaching kittens and acting suspiciously... they're KITTENS! How do you answer to these charges?

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01:15 (AM that is, but using 24 hour time format doesn't need AM/PM) here... zero sleep, listening to a bunch of depression music... :/

Living with family (family of origin, that is) but half of my family members are away... especialy mom...

You only learn to appreciate someone¹ once they're gone... this time for 30 days... one day its gonna be forever... 🥺 (¹mom that is, Idk how to feel about older brother, still haven't fixed the broken relationship since those series of fights about 7-9 years ago... )

Mom's so busy with my brother's marriage plans, haven't have much time to talk to me. Idk what to even say on the phone... I just wanna hear her voice... I kinda have a panic attach if i don't hear her voice or if she takes too long to respond...

I'm just feeling very suicidal rn

My parents told me that in China, they get paid once a month. And its a common story where employers refuse to pay their employees, and authorities kinda suck at doing anything about it...

Sometimes they ask you to 试工 (trial work?) for like a day (or whatever period of time they ask you to do), then they just say your performance is bad or whatever excuse, refuse to hire you, then you leave empty handed, and basically did work for free. So when my mom was was looking for work, I heard her ask "so just to make sure: I do get paid for today regardless of if you hire me or not right" (that was here in the US, at a store run by another ethnic Chinese), which is when she warned me about the shenanigans in China...

Anyways:

Here in the US, it's always been weekly pay

I don't think they ever had an issue with employers refusing to pay over here.

In China, my mom told me that sometimes they delay your pay for like a few days to sometimes even almost a month late... like its routine...

that China stuff was before 2010 btw

So about the overtime...

There's no such thing as the 1.5x bonus for time over 40 hours in China...

Sometimes they have performance-based bonus pay.

Like for example: my mom worked in electronics sales (think a sort of "Best Buy" type of thing) and like get commissions for making more sales... that type of stuff...

Afaik, there has always bonus pay for overtime for the employers my parents worked for here in the US. (I mean unless you are talking about those sketchy "under the table stuff" which my parents never did cuz they don't wanna mess the IRS.)

So hows the situation in your country? Is there like routine delayed pay or those shenanigans?

Omg my parents and my maternal grandma was like: (about my older brother's marriage thing) "You have to see out more options (in the same timeframe) in case your first match fails" or something...

Marriage is like College to them, and their "searching for 'candidates for marriage'" is like looking at colleges (or perhaps a college processing applications), looking at the person's profiles, education level, wealth, looks, intelligence, occupation, etc...

So weird to be in the sphere of all this lol...

They be so busy mom doesn't even really wanna talk to me...

(What the hell is life? Is this what being a human is? Be born, cant do anything for 6 years, then go through 8 hours of school every day till 18, then college, then work, marriage, taxes, children, then onto the graveyard. Yayyy.

Pls get me out of this simulation, I'm so bored and tired... 😩

Sorry I got another existential crisis...)

Why YSK:

Because this scenario:

I know what some people are thinking:

My eSIM is tied to my phone, phones these days have encryption, so all I need to do is set a lockscreen password then a thief cannot access any of my data.

WRONG

At least in Android: You can just use some button combo (just look up "[Phone model] hard reset") to get into the recovery menu and wipe all data, then reboot, and the eSIM is still there!

(Caveat to this: If you happen to have a Google account, it would force a FRP lock, and that would stop access, but most of fediverse does not like those type of online accounts, so: without a SIM PIN and without FRP locks, the eSIM is accessible to a thief)

Now the thief has your bank 2FA Codes!

TLDR: Set a pin on your SIM cards, even if it's an eSIM (but especially if you use physical SIM cards)

(Curious: Does anyone actually use SIM PINs or do I just have a lot of paranoid regarding tech and potential hacks/exploits)

I mean just throw in a bunch of stuff you already liked, and then ask it to find similar stuff... Or just ask for a genre of stuff like "Space themed show with a lot of politics" (Assuming you didn't already know that, then voila, it spits out: Expanse)

If it fucks up and give you something totally not what you were looking for, there's not much harm besides a small bit of your time. Its fictional media anyways, just don't go looking for news or medical advice lol, avoid treating it as a truth machine and its not that bad...

Okay sure you can hate the corporate that is gonna do evil shit with these tech, but the tech itself still kinda useful... (maybe we'll get some very advanced and ethically made FOSS "AI"/LLM in the future, who knows)

Basically the takeaway was:

"Fix your sleep schedule"

"Just go outside more"

"Stop being anxious, other people aren't constantly thinking about you"

Also I get asked like "so what do you do at home?"

um... how should I answer this? "Oh I read online forums that has politically extreme memes?" (I mean that's what half of Lemmy memes are...)

Or am I supposed to explain every youtube video I watched?

Idk how to even answer that...

My parents are paying the copays and I'm on parents insurance... honestly if I had to pay for this, I'd probably just sue them for funsies lmao... maybe if I win a medical malpractice lawsuit, the payout will cure my depression xD (okay probably not medical malpractice, but I felt like I was just wasting time so I really wanna just go sue them for fun lol)

I'm actually gonna die of "big sad" lmao

(My soul definitely died...)

LITERALLY listening to music feels more helpful than "therapy" or whatever... like 5th meet already... it feels equally weird in person and on video call... Like it just keeps getting more awkward each successive meet...

The "therapist" is white guy btw...

Dude was like "so do you feel like you have trouble acclimating to this country?"

And okay I know there's no malicious intentions... but the way that was asked felt like what right winger would ask and then follow up with "so why not go back"....

Okay so maybe its just my paranoia... but that kinda triggered me... so the rest of the session... like 15 minutes of the remaining time I just felt like I had a PTSD event gone through my head...