But I will spend my whole day feeling guilty about how I should do something on the list.

The list will not even be made.

I will just do whatever my brain feels like at the moment, drop my task half way through and go snack / browse the internet / whatever and then eventually start a different task I feel like in the moment.

Yes I have a million projects, all created a mess and all are crushing me mentally right now 🫠

People ask me "you seem tired, let me know if I can lend an ear", which is sweet but I don't know how to explain to them that I'm mentally ill and it's all my own damn fault.

Currently ripped apart the mudroom from my rental house (read: not mine) because the paint was crumbling, the MDF baseboards soaked up so much salt water and the walls were permanently stained because they used bad paint, so I spent almost $500 CAD on materials to fix it up and obsessively scraped off the existing paint, then had to shellac the wallpaper... Bleh. Also have to replace the base boards with solid wood ones (treated) so they don't wick up moisture.

I found a folder of papers and copy books from my post-uni days when I was aspiring to be a writer. So many half formed ideas with "fix ____ and we have something" scrawled next to them.

Nothing was fixed. We had nothing.

I learned that to stretch my ability to work at home I have to stay in gross work clothes that I can't put on the couch or bed.

Once I shower, no more effort, no more worky.

thank you for putting it into words

I needed to fix a drain in my kitchen sink. How did I do it? I made a list of things I needed to do for work, right in the middle of my work day, then set them aside and proceeded to fix the basket drain. Then I went back and completed a couple of items on my list of work tasks after my day was technically already over. Couldn't just do the tasks in work time and fix my sink after. Noooo...

Wait I don't remember posting this, oh ...

I know, I fucking love Saturdays too

I know the feeling.

"Being gay is a choice because I ignored my urges and fell in love with someone of the opposite sex, so everyone can do it" – someone not realising they're bisexual

The “I’m gonna get my life together so I don’t have to work this shitty job” to “I’m exhausted, I’ll do it tomorrow” pipeline does seem like a pretty commonplace experience, including NT folks, even if the adhd experience of executive dysfunction is different and the strategies that NT people employ to break the cycle don’t work for them. I think this just isn’t a great example because it manifests in a way that sounds familiar to most everyone.

This was really interesting! It makes initiative sense to me

Forgetting is still better than bumping right into the door.

It’s because you’re exhausting your mind and body at work and the background monkey brain chatter that ADHD gifted us with. A typical brain just says “I’ll do those later” and gets the work done and then goes home to fix their life. ADHD peeps like me, can’t let go of the “do it later” and just reserve it for later, due to impaired executive function.

I’m 45 and prescribed a rather high amount of amphetamines which help me just say “I’ll do that later” and I can count on myself to actually do it later.

I feel pretty much exactly the same. I never did the catching up outside work hours, because those are not work hours (I have been diagnosed with ASS which is probably where that comes from, having a sensitivity to fairness and justice and all that), so I've pretty much always been under-performing.

At least I'm in the progress of being diagnosed with ADHD now, hope to get some meds that will help with that.

Meds?

What're you doing on Lemmy? Isn't there something productive you should be doing right now?